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My Summer So Far

You want her, you need her, and I´ll never be her

Feeling used
But I'm
Still missing you
And I can't
See the end of this
Just wanna feel your kiss
Against my lips
And now all this time
Is passing by
But I still can't seem to tell you why
It hurts me every time I see you
Realize how much I need you

I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


I miss you when I can't sleep
Or right after coffee
Or right when I can't eat
I miss you in my front seat
Still got sand in my sweaters
From nights we don't remember
Do you miss me like I miss you?
Fucked around and got attached to you
Friends can break your heart too, and
I'm always tired but never of you
If I pulled a you on you, you wouldn't like that shit
I put this reel out, but you wouldn't bite that shit
I type a text but then I nevermind that shit
I got these feelings but you never mind that shit
Oh oh, keep it on the low
You're still in love with me but your friends don't know
If u wanted me you would just say so
And if I were you, I would never let me go


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


I don't mean no harm
I just miss you on my arm
Wedding bells were just alarms
Caution tape around my heart
You ever wonder what we could have been?
You said you wouldn't and you fucking did
Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix
Now all my drinks and all my feelings are all fucking mixed
Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing
Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges just to create some distance
I know that I control my thoughts and I should stop reminiscing
But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings
When love and trust are gone
I guess this is moving on
Everyone I do right does me wrong
So every lonely night, I sing this song


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her


All alone I watch you watch her
Like she's the only girl you've ever seen
You don't care you never did
You don't give a damn about me
Yeah all alone I watch you watch her
She's the only thing you've ever seen
How is it you never notice
That you are slowly killing me


I hate you I love you
I hate that I love you
Don't want to, but I can't put
Nobody else above you
I hate you I love you
I hate that I want you
You want her, you need her
And I'll never be her

This summer´s first swim

My 1st of May

I Guess Im Just No One, You Killed Me And I Am Done

My soul, I guess I’m just no one
You killed me and I’m done, without a gun
My light will fade, I feel betrayed
Just can’t be brave without faith
How could you leave?

I’m begging you, take me wherever you have gone
Come back and save me, don’t want to be alone
Nothing left, I just have one last breath

I’m begging you, take me out of this fiery hell
Come back and save me, what happened wasn’t fair
Nothing left, all that I have is one last breath
Only one last breath

Just pain, fake love and drunken lie
I struggle to survive, I’m still alive
I’m fighting tears and fears apart
But still it’s dark inside my heart…

I’m begging you, take me out of this fiery hell
Come back and save me, what happened wasn’t fair
Nothing left, all that I have is one last breath
Only one last breath

I’m begging you, take me wherever you have gone
I’m begging you, take me, don’t wanna be alone
All that I have is one last breath
One last breath

I really loved working there

Do you miss me like I miss you?

These lyrics tell how I feel now

I don't believe, I don't believe it
You left in peace, left me in pieces
Too hard to breathe, I'm on my knees
Right now, 'ow

I'm so sick of that same old love, that shit, it tears me up
I’m so sick of that same old love, my body's had enough
Oh, (that same old love) [2x]
I’m so sick of that same old love, feels like I've blown apart
I’m so sick of that same old love, the kind that breaks your heart
Oh, (that same old love) [2x]


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Falling out of a perfect dream, coming out of the blue.
Is it true?
Is it over? 
Did I throw it away?
Was it you?
Did you tell me you would never leave me this way?
If you really knew me
You couldn’t do this to me
You would be my friend

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Miks sä sytytit sillat palaa? En löydä enää sun luo Teitkö sä tän tahallaan? Nyt kaikki palaa. Miks sä sytytit sillat palaa? Sun liekit satuttaa mua Jätit mun maailman palamaan Nyt kaikki palaa

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Ja sä vaan lähdit kävelee sanomatta edes moi mä kun luulin etten ilman sua enää elää voi en kai tuntenut sua vielä tippaakaan Ja tuskin niitä mietit me mitä kerran luvattiin mä kun uskoin niin kuin hölmö vain sun uusiin valheisiin miten palat yhteen liimatuksi saa?

Kato mitä sä teit sä jätit vain sirpaleita heitit hiekkaa suoraan mun silmiin multa petti alta maa kato mitä sä teit sä jätit vain sirpaleita enää vain palaneita siltoja vain jäljet savuaa

En ollut sulle tarpeeksi sä mua vain kokeilit ja heitit sitten nurkkaan pois kuin vanhan haalarin miten palat yhteen liimatuksi saa?

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I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems

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I really feel 
That I'm losing my best friend 
I can't believe
This could be the end 

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But I don't know him anymore

There's nothing where he used to lie
The conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light

It crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn

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Mikä siinä on, että sun piti mennä muuttumaan toisenlaiseks? Mikä siinä on?
En tiedä kuka muuttui, tää ei oo sitä mistä rauhan saan. Sotkin unelman ja painajaisen, siks mä laulan taas.
Heyo, meidän aika käy vähiin, se on kohtaloo. Sekotin mä taas unelman ja painajaisen, pinnan alta löysin toisenlaisen ihmisen. 

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Koska me ei olla enää me Ostetaan joululahjat joillekkin toisille Sä et kuulu enää mulle Kun lähdet en perääsi enää kävele Koska me ei olla enää me Voit saattaa kotiin mut et pääse enää sisälle Ei haavat niitä repimällä parane Joten käänny ja kävele Koska me ei olla enää me

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Oh, and the award for
The best lie goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, oh

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

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Cause I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Till you put me down oh
I knew you were trouble when you walked in
So shame on me now
Flew me to places I'd never been
Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

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So shoot me while I`m walking away
to stop the pain I feel in my heart somehow
Taking all the think I can take
I`m in hell
I don`t wanna be your friend
But baby don't let me go
You know it`s come in to an end
When you turn up the radio, radio, radio o-oh

My stereo don`t play lovesongs at all,
My stereo don`t play lovesongs at all,
My stereo don`t play lovesongs at all, at all,at all,at all, no-o
My stereo don`t play lovesongs at all,
it`s ever since you keep and broke my heart
My stereo don`t play lovesongs at all, at all, at all, at all, no-o

I don`t wanna hear no more
Its broken and smashed on the floor like my heart,
my heart, my heart
You left in pieces

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I came in like a wrecking ball
I never hit so hard in love
All I wanted was to break your walls
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

I put you high up in the sky
And now, you're not coming down
It slowly turned, you let me burn
And now, we're ashes on the ground

I came in like a wrecking ball
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and swung
Left me crashing in a blazing fall
All you ever did was wreck me
Yeah, you, you wreck me

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Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

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And I'm in pieces, baby fix me
And just shake me 'til you wake me from this bad dream

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Oo niin kiltti ja tuu viimeisen kerran mua halaamaan Kertomaan mitä kauheaa tein

Sä autoit mua kaatumaan Ja nyt kun olen polvillaan Mä oon sulle vain läpinäkyvä vain läpinäkyvä Miten koko rakkaus yhdessä yössä hävitä sun muistikuvista voi Mä oon sulle vain läpinäkyvä vain läpinäkyvä

Oot niin kummallinen etten mä tunnista kuka sä oot Vaikka tunsin sut äsken kokonaan Mikä sun on Sitäkö pelkäät et kohta sut hylkään ja siksi näin teet Vai tosiaanko sä muutit sun mielen nyt unohdat kaiken ja eteenpäin meet

Mut pyydän vielä Nyt mieti meitä Ja sano se mulle et valehtelitko sä vaan